Peace

Right, so, update on my current life situation.

I got a call last night from the big wig at my job. She offered me the position that I applied for and of course I happily agreed. It does come with a substantial pay increase and my hours are going to be different, but she has assured me that I will continue to have Sundays off as previously arranged.

I went to my first day of training today.

Let me explain what this position is. It is officially called Assistant Team Lead, or ATL from here on out. The Team Lead, or TL, is responsible for a set number of people, making sure that they are making their conversion goals, showing up for work on time, working their scheduled shifts, taking their breaks when they are supposed, and keeping the quality of their calls up.

My job is going to be to do whatever they do. I will, in effect, be a substitute for when they go on vacation, or are sick, or are simply short for one reason or another. I will be taking calls from angry customers; I will be doing their data entry into the computer, and everything else they do.

I am dammed excited. I work my ass off, no matter what position I am in and I feel that I have very commendable leadership skills. I have simply needed a chance to prove it at this job. I guess I did that pretty well already since; there were only two of us who were hired.

I started the training today, by Friday I will be with a TL who will begin to walk me through the ropes. I am very excited, have I mentioned that yet?

After training today, I went out and the man who was my TL stopped me and we chatted for a while. It seems that from the moment I turned in the application, the position was mine, there was never any question, the interview and waiting period were all simply formalities. It makes me feel good to know that out of the one thousand five hundred employees we have at this center, I stood out enough that I had a guaranteed spot.

I am thrilled and on cloud nine. I feel like life is fully coming together. It doesn’t matter to me anymore if this is a manic episode or not, I am going to enjoy it to its fullest. I am tired of living my life around cycles and it’s going to stop. I can do this. I might slip, I might fall, however, I will pick myself back up and I will continue on because I deserve this, my family deserves this and I have worked hard to get where I am now.

For far too long I have lived under a cloud of darkness, or at the very least, the threat of that cloud. I am tired of it. I am taking my life back and it is going to be what I want it to be and I have very clear cut goals in mind for exactly how I am going to do that. Closer to New Years I will be posting them here.

One thing however, is to remind those who have held my hand and offered a shoulder to cry on, who have supported me and encouraged me, just exactly how much I have grown because of them.

There are a few people who read this blog who give me that. Mind you, every single one of my readers are awesome people and I am lucky to have their loyalty.

Buffalo: You are a never ending fountain of support. Your words are normally few, but, have such meaning and are like small pearls of wisdom.

Lili: You tell it like it is. You may not always comment here, but, I read your blog and am inspired every single day by you.

Amber and Dan: Heaven only knows how much I owe to the two of you. I have expressed it to you privately in email, so I will not go into all the details, but, you have an amazing gift to show the world your love and for me, it makes me realize the potential that Chris and I have as a couple. Everyone can learn and grow, and while we are not exactly like you, I have learned a lot from you that has given my life a richer meaning.

Angel: You are always here to support me and I love you girl.

Xariklea: My sounding board, you are always here to listen, no matter what kind of news I present to you. You make me feel laugh and I know I can cry with you.

I have left out only Angeliano, and only because I recently dedicated an entire post to him, he knows very clearly how I feel.

I love all of you; you have given me so much in my life, simply by just being my friend. Your love, your support, your encouragement, has made a world of difference in my life. This year, I am grateful and better for having met all of you. Thank you for that.