Still Alive-Elaborated Version

Wow, where to begin. Life is full of greatness in my world right now.

Chris has finished his second semester of school. One of the classes that he was taking was to lead into what he was going to do for the next two years. The class was split in half, one half of it being classroom stuff, the other half being labs. To complete the class, he had to do certifications, six to be exact. Each certification has to be done on a different person, so we hauled all three kids in, and I also went in. With two days left, we felt good about things because he had only two remaining, we called his cousin, she said she would be delighted to come and let him do it. She would even pick us up and take us out there. I call her Sunday night, the night before we need her to be there, and, she assures me she will be there. So, come Monday morning, we wait, and wait, and wait some more. I call and get no answer; I call back, several times. To make a long story short, she never shows up, which leaves him with one day to complete everything. The one certification is an all day process, but, still he goes to the teacher on Tuesday, she informs him that since he needs two more, there is no point, he says he would like to try anyway, she tells him that if it snows the next day (we were scheduled for a massive snow storm) that she wasn’t going to be coming in. Have I mentioned that if he doesn’t complete the certifications, he fails the class no matter how good his classroom grade is? Oh yeah, it’s automatic.

So, we spent a lot of time worrying and stressing over his student loans. We really can not afford for them to come due right now. So, on Thursday we went to the school, so that he could take the very last finals for this class and another one. While we were there, I went down and spoke to them about it, and have found out that the Dean of the college can over ride him loosing his financial aide which he will surely do when he looks at the fact that last semester he took four classes and finished with a perfect 4.0 gpa.

Chris decided he would study something else. We talked about a lot of different options and after much debating, he decided on something. Ironically, it was one of the things that I had considered doing once he was finished with school. However, I realized that once he is done with school, he’ll make more money than I do now and we will no longer qualify for financial aid. Yes, it is all a twisted little path we walk along.

So, how can I think that life is so great with all of this going on? Well let me tell you. On Friday we went down for him to take the last final he had for his online class, I went down and talked to some people.

I am now as enrolled as a student for college.

Crazy shit huh?

>shakes head at self<

So, then, in addition to this, I have also had big things happening at work. They recently opened up six new positions. The main boss brings me an application and orders me to fill it out. So, I do. It is a promotion for me and I would really like to have it, but, there are almost one thousand people where I work, I figured my chances were slim to none at best. However, I was chosen to interview for it. I don’t know yet if I got it, but, I was told by someone else that I was in the top three, so, all I can do his hope. It would be great to get. I work really hard at my job and am very professional.

Then of course, is the stress of getting ready for Christmas. The tree to put up, the presents to buy, then wrap, the stockings to fill, cards to get sent out. I am seriously overwhelmed with all of it as this time of year is always hard for me anyway.

On a plus note, the dear friend that I have blogged several times about, gave me my Christmas present today. I was taken out by Chris and the kids under the guise of needing to pick up my mother in law’s wallet from the theater where it supposedly was lost last night while she was at the movies. Instead, I found myself sitting in front of a screen waiting for “The Chronicles of Narnia” to start. I was so excited; I think I was worse then the kids.

It was a great day in general, and I am looking forward to Christmas this year, we might be poor as far as money goes, but, damned, I have blessings in abundance. I will revel in the love of my friends and family and bask in the light of harmony that shines in our home. Our life is not perfect, but, it suits me just fine and what doesn’t suit me, I am determined to make better. That is my creed now. If I don’t like it, I will change it.

I am slightly afraid that I am simply having a manic moment, because it is always hard to tell when it is manic or when it is real happiness. I feel freer then I have in such a long time. I do not feel emotionally crippled or held down as tightly as I was before. I know that it has to do with my purging myself. I also know that I need to get back to it before things go bad for me again, but, I have been so busy right now that it has been hard to focus.

All I can say is that life is good and I am so glad that I have all that I do. I am glad to know those of you who frequent me regularly, or allow me to regularly peek into your lives. It is one of the many many things I am blessed to have in my life. You know who you are, even if I don’t say it often enough.