A Return

Wow, I must say I have been out of bloggerland far too long. As I sat down to sort myself out this morning, the first thing I did was to go through and visit all of my old haunts. Let me tell you, there were not many of them left anymore, those that are, seemed to have given up on me and removed me from their listing. The good news is that, I have returned, and I have completed an actual college course dedicated to writing, hopefully it will help me to tell my stories a little better.

I have been gone a long time because I became afraid to write here. It seemed to no longer be a safe place for me and every post seemed to take so much out of me. I make no promises that I won't need to take more time off, but I do intend to tell my story.

I had thought for a while that I would separate my sex life from my daily and past life so that eventually my children would be able to come here and read what I write. I think I may still do that, but it is something far in the future to think about.

Life has been busy here in my little corner of the world. I have completed my second semester of classes and am only one year away from getting my degree. I am still struggling with my bi-polar disorder and Chris is here, still loving me the way that he always has. I am working long hours at my job and trying to get ready for Christmas, which is going to be very small this year.

My mother is still a pain in my ass with her judgmental views of me, while firmly clinging to the blinders she uses to see my brothers. Everyday I pray that I never treat my children as unfairly has she has my brothers and me.

The children are all doing as well as can be expected. The daughter is nearing fourteen and my fear that she will step into my life is overwhelming. If we can get her to eighteen without a pregnancy we'll be doing well. Thankfully I know she isn't having sex yet, simply because her grades have kept her grounded to the house nearly all year long.

It is time to repack my bags and begin my journey yet again into the past. I hope that you will all walk beside me once again.