How Do You Get That Lonely?

"How Do You Get That Lonely" Blaine Larsen

It was just another story written on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on his bedroom floor

There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him beneath a stone...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that having' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody knows

Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall?

I'm not blaming' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that having' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody knows

It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score...

I heard this song on the radio the other day as I was driving home. The first thought that came into my head was “You don’t understand, you don’t know, because I won’t >let<>

Depression is a disorder. It makes those of us who are inflicted by it, suffer in terrible ways. One of them is self-isolation. We cut ourselves off from the world. We hide from those who would help us and we scorn the solutions presented. Why do we do this? Because in society it is still considered a weakness to cry. A person who cries regularly, is called a crybaby. Heaven forbid a man cries. He’s a pussy, he’s weak, and he’s disturbed.

Stigmatisms are all around us. It is so hard to come forward and admit that you have mental problems. If you have a mental breakdown and call into work, people think you’re stupid. If your child is sobbing and unable to remain in class, they will be ridiculed and called names.

They have places where they lock up people with mental illness. Not because they have done anything wrong, but, because of the perceived idea that they >might<>

The words crazy, psycho, and insane are words commonly associated with people who suffer from mental disorders. They are labels put in place by the ignorant. They are people who are afraid because they have no idea what these disorders are all about.

So, how is it that people don’t see it? Because they don’t >want<>

The bottom line is, you don’t want to see and we don’t want to show you. Sometimes, just.. sometimes, we find someone we can share our hurts with. We find a person who has had similar hurts and we cling to one another. We feel their pain and hurt, they happiness and joy.

For me, I found a group of these people. They know who they are. And for them, I need to say thank you. Thank you for giving me a place where I can feel safe and secure in dumping my most intimate thoughts and feelings. Thank you for your kind words, prayers and advice. I want to say what I don’t say often enough and that is I love you.