That's really what I wish I could do. Crawl into a hole and die.
My kidney hurts like hell. There's blood in my urine. I've been unable to keep anything down. Oh yeah, did I mention that apple juice tastes the same coming up as it did going down? My back is black and blue and the pain pills aren't even denting anything.
On the plus side. That was Monday and most of Tuesday. Today is Wednesday and I've been able to keep a little bit of stuff down and so that makes me feel better. I passed ALOT of stone and was able to catch it so the doctor can test it.
At the moment, the biggest thing lingering on my mind is my two best friends. I have seriously neglected them over the past couple of weeks. I can almost feel the distance creeping in between us. I ask him what is wrong and he says nothing, yet, I can tell something is wrong.
It is almost as if he is saying to me "I can feel us drifting, so, I'm going to push before you hurt me". Doesn't he know how much I love him? Her too! I need them in my life so much. I know I've been a terrible friend, but if you are reading this, please know that I love you with everything I have to give. I can not bear to think of my life without you. Either of you. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me.
2 comments:
awwww, nikki. I'm sorry you're hurting!
As for your friends, perhaps they have things going on too, like you do. Don't assume they're gonna walk away. *hugs*
Poor you! Kidney stones are awful. My 15 year old has had them since age 10, my son since age 18. Hereditary abnormality in how the kidney functions.
Two months ago my daughter passed a dime sized stone - I have a photo of it - her doctor was stunned. She passed it all alone, with no pain meds. She has an extremely high pain threshold.
I do hope yours are all out and done with soon.
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